So I have this friend
Or should I say "had"
He was my best friend
I divulged my deepest thoughts, feelings, and secrets to him
Though I only knew him for a short time I felt like I knew him all my life
We had almost everything in common
I talked to him daily
He give me sound advice, he was there when I needed him to be
He was the perfect friend
He made me feel special, appreciated, and loved
And now
Now
There's nothing..no indication that we were ever friends
He just stopped
It was like flipping a switch
It's not like we had a fight or some type of disagreement
He just fell off and I don't know why
He said he was doing his own thing so I gave him space to do it
I thought he'd come back around when he did whatever needed to be done. But he didn't
And there's nothing
And it hurts beyond compare
And enrages me just as much
How do I fix this
What is this to fix
I feel betrayed and used
Like I was some place holder until other ppl started acting right again.
I'm not a fuckin place holder
I'm beyond that and if he doesn't know that then fuck him
Or maybe that's not the case
How am I to know that?? So I'm left to believe whatever theory my brain develops and that's never a positive theory
This is beyond apologies
And beyond my comprehension
