New Moon

so Twilight Sage: New Moon has a wolf pack..
so far..o so good lol
but the movie is rank for me because of one blonde reason



Dakota Fanning?
Seriously??
eww

The Reasons Why I Always Owe AT&T my Whole Paycheck

Im a very withdrawn person
i dont like people
i dont go out looking for friends
i dont need people to like me
i dont need their approval
i dont need ppl to justify who i am and why im like that
i dont need to be in a social group
i dont want to be sociable
Im perfectly happy by myself
Im an only child
i learned how to entertain myself
without the need of other children
but like every adolescence, i went through the phase of needing to be wanted
to be popular, to be noticed and all that other rubbish
I learned that ppl were conniving, lying, jealous, selfish, two faced little posers
well at least middle schoolers were lol

So i began to re-evaluate the word "friend"
I realized i have a lot of acquaintances, but very few real friends
real friends i can trust, depend on, respect, and love
now i will call these acquaintances friends
but only for their benefit, because their feelings are important
but my friends are my lifeline
the only ppl that I feel the need to go out my way for
The ones that deserve the very best from me
There are only a few ppl
Who I hold in such a high regard
Who I really treasure
But this blog is already long enough so let's cut to the chase
Out of these few ppl, there are four that stand out..they also stand out on my phone bill

1. Ms. Wallace - intro date: July 04 Monthly AT&T Usage: Over 5,000 m2m minutes
1500 texts
its very rare to be blessed with the opportunity to meet a dynamic person in your lifetime, let alone share a incredible friendship with them.And I found that in her. Ironically enough it was right across the trayline lol..I could go on and on about you. U are my other half, my sister, my ace, my best friend. You know me like the back of your hand and it feels like I've known you all my life. I'd do anything for you and you have already proven you would do the same for me.

2. Mr. Johnson - intro date: Jan. 08 Monthly At&T Usage: 1800 m2m minutes 1200 texts
He became my sounding broading and my crutch. You have seen me through my toughest relationship, seen me bounce back from the love of my life, seen me struggle for something as simple as a friendship yet get nothing at all. You watched it all and took notes LOL. Now it's your time to shine and boy you light up like city lights. You make me happy and I hope I do the same for you.

3. Mr. Webb - intro date: Nov. 08 Monthly AT&T Usage: 400 minutes 1200 texts
His ability to care for ppl astounds me. You are such a unique person with such a profound clarity of life. Your empathic nature makes it easy to talk to you. I value your advice and input. Even though I know ppl try to take advantage of your kindness, I hope you know that I would never do that to you. I don't care who doesn't like us being friends because I'm not going to give you up for anything. You are the realest nigga I know

4. Ms. Harris - intro date: Aug. 05 Monthly AT&T Usage: 12 mb of Internet answering her on myspace lol
I have too much in common with her. I feel as though we have the same struggle in life. The same problems the same desires. We just display our feelings differently. I don't think there's anyone whose made me laugh harder than you. We don't need to spend hours on the phone. Just know that I'm always there for you. And I'm just a myspace message away to kick someones ass for you.

So there you have it. Not saying that these are my only real friends
Just the ones that make their presence felt the most
My favorites
Don't like it?
That sounds like a personal problem, take that up with your local physican

That is all

Proud Momma

This is my new child
affectionately named child #2

that is all

Let's not be too hasty

so I have this friend
Great guy
A real heart of gold type of person
Who happens to keep attracting fake metals
But o well
Life is not fair nor easy
But he understands that
So he keeps on keeping on
That's the way you got to be
But lately things have gone sideways with his brother
But brothers fight...that's what any closely connected ppl do
But they get past it
But it doesn't look like things will work that way this time
In fact they don't look like they will work out at all
I feel responsible
I am responsible
No matter if he says it not my fault (because that's the type of man he is)
We all know it is
I wrote some things in anger that backfired on him instead of myself
No I'm not sorry for writing them because I meant every word
I'm not taking them back or deleting anything
But I will apologize for his grief over this situation
And it's public knowledge that me and his brother do not and will not get along
Not because of his actions.. Rather his warped thought process
And I care less and less for him everyday
But my dislike for his brother cannot and will not
Condone them cutting each other off
Because b4 me it was them
And that's how it should be afterwards
Doesn't matter who friends with who and what they think
The brotherhood counts
The bond matters
Now maybe he doesn't trust u now
Or u can't deal with his demeanor
But the fact is
There's a six yr friendship on the line here
Blood sweat and tears have been shed by both parties
Now decide if it's worth giving up
And if it's not..then who's gonna be man enough to save it

That is all

The Running Man

iPod Blog 3

I'm unsettled
I guess when you like someone
Alot
And they dont do something u wanted them to do
It makes u....unsettled
I guess I will have to get over it
But the sad part is..they don't even know why
You aren't happy with them
And they don't fix it
So you stay mad
Until they do fix it
I could tell them what the problem is
But they are supposed to know me really well
So u figure it out
LOL
O well
I have no choice but to get over it
Ugh

Golden Dolphins

so i've been in the mood to buy shoes...
heels no less
???????
yeah crazy i know
but all the ones i want arent exactly for summer time
i.e. my feet will be hot ass shit!!!

so i figure i'd go for nikes
to cheer me up on my heel dilemma
lol
ironically i found these dunks with red high heels on the side lol
but they are black
and im trying to break away from that for awhile
but alil black in a shoe wont hurt..

which led me to these other dunks i've been wanting for weeks
they were so offy lookin lol
but now they are being worn by someone else
and i can't wear the same pair they have
so...
i looked
and searched....
and finally
found these on sale



and now i dont have a shirt to match
but that gives me a reason to do more shopping
yay!!!!!

that is all

OMG HP:HBP

iPod blog 2

so Its another morning
And I instantly wish today will be as great as yesterday
But I won't see wally today so that automaticall makes it
Lacklustered
Lol
But I see My other nigga today
My former cut buddy
It used to be awkward to be around him
Ya know with him being in love with me and all LOL
But I think he's past that now
But I got a feeling that he thinks
He's gonna get somethin other than a hello hug today
That ain't gonna happen
So I'll just sit on the other side of the room from him
There is no whatever happens happens
Because I may not call what me and wally have a relationship
But we are exclusive
And I'm not tempted by that other nigga

And then there's work which will be fine because
My other half will be there
And there won't be pests there tonight either

TGIF

That's all

Good Morning

"some ppl graduate but be still stupid" - Mr. West

As i sit here this morning waiting for wally
i think about my thoughts lol
and my dreams
and this is how they go:

my leg hurts!!!!! seriously its scratched up on my calf and my upper thigh
that fucks up my shorts plans for the summer

crazy oryan got me dreaming about star wars
more like yoda fighting vulcans lol

"pussy ass niggas got a whole bunch of nerve, i'll have them put ur picture on a whole bunch of shirts"

someone owes me money...but who????

im still lost watchin lost lol

slow strokin wouldnt be bad right about now lmao

i need a new phone because my blackjack is killing itself softly

i need more memory on my ipod

cat for sale

today is great sunglasses attire day

work will actually be good today

again...oryann has the frosted flakes song stuck in my head

eggs in basket are good..and now i'll go make it


that is all

Get the Fuck off My Blog

This blog is the last one im gonna write about little timmy

if you dont like it..dont fuckin read it

so i hear whispers
that you think im spiteful, bitter
even jealous
from what i put in my blogs and on my myspace
how stupid r u
dont fuckin read them then
keep your clown ass off of them
its quite simple
my life is no concern of yours
so dont look at the things that discuss it
i said i was happy for you
that i still wanted to be friends but u wanted no part in that
fine
so dont worry about who im friends with
thats not ur fuckin business
its not you so move the fuck on
u have a girlfreind remember?
all ur statuses are about her
thats great
u have a blog about her
even better
but as soon as i write a few lines about the man in my life..im spiteful
what retarded ass thinkin is that?
ur upset cuz its not you
it never was you
it never will be you
why?
cuz ur just another aint shit nigger
ur nothing but a pain in the ass to anyone who ever has the misfortune of knowing you
ur a pitiful whiny crybaby
a fraud to manhood
and you disgust me

you may read this..you may not
i dont give a fuck
i can say it to ur face
it makes me no nevermind
so keep my name out your mouth
dont think about me
dont write about me
keep it to urself

that is all

how bout some corbin bleu for my salad

Where did his hair go? where did that hair on his face come from??
now he looks sexy
mm mm good

i do declare

so its seems as tho my friends seem to be having some relationship dilemmas
im sure as hell not one to tell them how to handle it
but i find it interesting how they all have relationships now
what happened to our singles only club?
looks like that club has been disbanded
but now yall got problems to follow that "L" word

one of them called off her engagement
one is afraid to actually fall in love with the dude
one just got his heart broken..again
one has a philandering boyfriend
one cant handle the stress of a long distance relationship
one cant get his girlfriend to forgive him
and to him i say
maybe u should try acting ur age not ur dick size

but me?
Im worry free in that department
No fuss
No muss
No stress
No mess
Not vexed
just good sex
lol jk

Its a good feeling
He's my good feeling
He's mine and he's comfortable with whatever we choose to be
he's my gravity
the reason for random smiles on my face
and even tho i only have him until august
it will be the best damn summer since malachi
and i look forward to it
he's like kix
'kid tested, mother approved'
life is bright

but the dark side still calls to me...
and eventually i'll answer

iPod blog

so I've been up since 6 am.
My mother has a bad habit of waking me up
And talking to me before she goes to work
But this time I couldn't go back to sleep
Things were on my mind
Things that I'm not sure I can do anything about
Mainly because I might make those situations worse
It sucks being useless
O well...that's the hand I was dealt
My HBK advisor has told me to stay away from someone
To not have any communication
Because it might make the case worse
I understand that
But I haven't followed it
In fact, I've had several conversations with them
Nothing horrible has happened
I see no relapse
I think it's in the past
So why dwell on it
Why not speak to them
Maybe this time they will believe I actually care
It's under different circumstances now
So why not see if it will turn out better
I see
It's because I have someone else to consider
I don't see that as a problem
He knows where he stands and he's comfortable there
So why not mend broken fences in my free time?
As long as the new fence doesn't block my new path
Yeah I know
Build along side of the path
I get it
I can handle that
I think

help?

i miss my shoe dude (thats right i said i miss him..and?)
but he see's it fit not to talk to me
rather talk about me to others
but thats not the point
he's not here to go "hmmmm" with me

so do you know what these are called
because i cant keep callin them "pretty fly"



or the type of supras these are?

Picnic Wear

so i need an outfit for my family reunion picnic
and i have to be fresher then those country bumpkins
so i found some good picnic shoes

care to donate?

Vader Haters

all my life
i've slipped in and out
of the "dark side"
its just the way i am
I was mostly a good faithful jedi
and sometimes i was seduced by the dark side
but i never crossed over
until i was 16
thats when i realized....
there were no limitions
carefree
do as you want and to hell with anybody else
but i still clung to the light
hoping on hope
the 'x' severed that cord..
and i fell to the dark side
no remorse
no compassion
no sympathy
no mercy
no regret
it was all out of fear
fear leads to hate and hate leads to the dark side
i was afraid to let anything that close again
so i destroyed it before it got close enough
i treated it as a threat and threats were annihilated.
emotion was a weakness
my heart was my biggest vulnerability
so i constructed a shield
to cover it
its called pride
its also my biggest weapon
when it is wounded..there is hell to pay
i went yrs like this
this move or be moved mentality
the hurt them before they hurt you mindset.
It was on auto pilot
but then i saw light
but the dark side doesnt relinquish control over you that easily
so thats been my struggle now
flippin back and forth
but i've found a happy medium
some ppl find this behavior hard to deal with
they dont understand
how could they
i dont expect them to
they leave the puzzle unsolved
maybe they need simpler things
o well

deal it or fold
this is me
in all my gory glory
either love it
or move aside for someone who will

Timothy...I thought y'all should know about him

he's wonderful
He's kind
He's generous
He's a little cheap but o well
He's compassionate
He's loving
He's reliable
He charming
He's understanding
He looks out for my best interests
He's one of a kind
He has great taste in music
He's awesome

And I love him
He's the man in my life
I'm talkin about timothy

My father
Timothy Lipscomb
Hi dad!

LMAO

"ur so vain......."

As If

i feel as tho ppl have been playing on my sympathy
my guilt
my regret
i feel as tho someone has been playing me for a fool
and i understand that everybody plays the fool sometimes
and there are no exceptions to the rule
but...
that doesnt mean i have to accept that fate
so fuck it
fuck it all
i won't get mad or even
i just wont deal with it
it can now forever talk to my back
cuz i no longer see it
im takin my show on the road
to a new audience

My Name is Nicole Shante Lipscomb
and i have No Sympathy Left

April's Fool

sigh...
I've had this feeling all day
this feeling of..
regret i guess idk
i just keeping wishing would someone would run up and scream APRIL FOOLS to me
telling me the last few months have been one big prank
and things would get back on track
but no one is gonna do that
it has occured to me that i haven't written any poems lately
mostly because i've had this writer's block called stress
the stress is gone but the block is still there
i feel like i need to write
but i've said everything i needed to say
everything i could say
everything but one question
why couldnt he just believe me in the first place?
there..so it is written lol
so now its time to move on...

haha Wally just sent me Gotcha!!
yeah i wish it were that easy...

Which reminds me
i need some new male friends
i guess i've scared most of them away
that and the others went off to the service
all i got now is wally and oryan
and maybe even......no i dont think he'll be speaking to me anytime soon
so i need new ones

now accepting applications