Ipod blog Vi - the relapse

i didn't get alot of sleep
Up pondering my existence type stuff
Then somehow my Mind started wandering about my "love life"
Especially the past yr
The successes and shortcomings
It's makin me feel some type of way
Something I wasn't expecting because I thought I had moved on
I still miss him
I still love him
Yeah I can be hella angry at someone but that's only masking the fact that I still love him.
I guess after walters departure it got me thinking about what should have been..what in some ways still can be
But things are too damaged and we don't even speak to each other..that's not how I imagined we'd be at this point. Even if we weren't together I thought we'd still be friends..I miss the friendship. I don't know what the point is of writing this blog but it's what was on my mind..I'd love to pretend these feelings weren't still there but they are.
Looking over the past yr has made me skeptical to try anything again but I always wondered if we could go back
To the good ole days.
To what our future should have been
My former blogs about him don't depict him it a good light but that's all water under the bridge..
Time goes on
And so will I

That is all