Vader Haters

all my life
i've slipped in and out
of the "dark side"
its just the way i am
I was mostly a good faithful jedi
and sometimes i was seduced by the dark side
but i never crossed over
until i was 16
thats when i realized....
there were no limitions
carefree
do as you want and to hell with anybody else
but i still clung to the light
hoping on hope
the 'x' severed that cord..
and i fell to the dark side
no remorse
no compassion
no sympathy
no mercy
no regret
it was all out of fear
fear leads to hate and hate leads to the dark side
i was afraid to let anything that close again
so i destroyed it before it got close enough
i treated it as a threat and threats were annihilated.
emotion was a weakness
my heart was my biggest vulnerability
so i constructed a shield
to cover it
its called pride
its also my biggest weapon
when it is wounded..there is hell to pay
i went yrs like this
this move or be moved mentality
the hurt them before they hurt you mindset.
It was on auto pilot
but then i saw light
but the dark side doesnt relinquish control over you that easily
so thats been my struggle now
flippin back and forth
but i've found a happy medium
some ppl find this behavior hard to deal with
they dont understand
how could they
i dont expect them to
they leave the puzzle unsolved
maybe they need simpler things
o well

deal it or fold
this is me
in all my gory glory
either love it
or move aside for someone who will