Fools Rush In

so the relationship aspect of my life has been in a whirlwind
for the past yr
today is actually the anniversary of me giving up on the "Mountain Saga"
of my life...and it made me wonder
how different my life would be if i were still with him
and i realize
i'd be resentful..esp since he's off playing secret agent man somewhere
thats not the life for me
of course i still love him
but not as much as last yr lol
But I never took time to heal from that loss
Its important that you receive closure from that situation
and i never got it..at least not until months later
i was still getting mixed signals from him and he still had my heart
in this time, a new dude popped up
tho i could see the potential he had..i just wasnt ready to let go of my love for my ex
but he still wanted to try to change my mind..so i let him
as time went on i realized that new dude was the one to get me past the former
and he did..and i loved him for that
i loved him because he cared
so i figured id take things slow
so i dont botch up anything
but the word patience wasnt in dudes vocabulary anymore
and things went south
really quick
i still wonder how the hell that happened but oh well
cant cry over spilled milk
i still wanted his friendship
but that was another word that was no longer in his vocabulary
so that situation took up months
of hard work...HARD WORK
so again, i needed time to myself
but then wally popped up
he was already my friend
but he was really helpful in the situation
telling me to hang in there and shit would get better
even though we all know it got a hellovalot worse
but he still remained a constant friend
and then one day it was more
call it convenient (YEAH IT WAS)
but he's no longer convenient
he's a necessity
but he leaves in july
and if i go forward with him then heartbreak is inevitable
even though he thinks it wont be as bad as i make it to be
he's too fucking reassuring
and i believe him
so fuck it..i can handle heartbreak
its second nature for me
i've mastered the art of picking up the pieces and moving on
no diggidy no doubt baby