He got his own

so by now the word has spread
the running theme of my blog
has got a girlfriend
all eyes on me now
cuz you all expect me to be jealous
but im not
no really im not
stop holding ur breaths
cuz im not gonna do ur huffin and puffin for you
let it ride out
so you might say
damn bitch, you just dont care at all?
no im not sayin that either
see i chose to be happy for him..for them both
why would i do otherwise?
i dont want to keep him from pure happiness
and if this woman gives it to him so be it
so now its time to lock my feelings up
but i've mastered that already
but its always harder to do when u know u've been replaced
especially when he said u weren't going to be replaced..and then bam u are
but he's happy so i'm happy
im free now
free from guilt
torment agony
hurt from not being trusted
free from stress
so theres nothing that gives me cause for pause..nothing? at all?
well that would be a lie to say theres nothing
i find it interesting that after saturdays extremely long debate and the feelings were still there
that monday it was a different story
sat was the 28th yet their official date is the 27th...so was sat. a sham? a facade?
i guess i'll never know
and the second thing is that..
get this
yall ready???
homie oryan actually got to me
somehow his words actually got through my stubborn exterior
he convinced me of what needed to be done to prove myself
and even tho i was weary of the outcome
i was gonna take matters into my own hands
so all i needed to do was think about it and present it
i guess if i hadnt signed onto myspace i would have embarassed myself
so im thankful
but those things dont matter
he found someone that fits him
she's sweeter than me and cant be gotten out of a bottle
im too much work..and not really worth it
im free and he's taken
all is right with the world
right?

we'll see...

but dont worry about me
"oh no not i..i will survive
o as long as i know how to love i know i'll stay alive
cuz i got all my life to live and i got all my love to give
i'll survive
i will survive
hey hey"